Monthly Archive for: ‘April, 2014’

Love is forever …for…ever…

The love I have for Scott is never diminishing. In almost twenty years…not at all… It can’t be diminished. Why? Because Scott has shown me purely unconditional love in so many ways…since his death… I could never have known we would have this magnificent continuing relationship… And if I even doubted it…because I was in such deep pain…I had to …

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Scott’s words about his leaving…

When my love for Scott was ever so present…after his death…it was so multi-faceted… I love you forever sweetheart. Forever… Do you know that? I miss you beyond words Scott! I am so confused…What do I DO with all my love for you?? Can you hear me cry out to you? Is it possible you do hear me? …Every day? …

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The needs of a grieving heart…

When life and death intersect and we are standing in the middle of it…where do we go for answers…help? We are the ones in pain and yet …WE must do the work to understand this tragedy too?? How can we as grievers come to the place of understanding the reality of of our lives…keep going to work, raise our families, …

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Life and death and everything in between teach us…

I never thought deeply about life and death… The need to do this only came after Scott’s death… Because…as I wrote before…I did not want Scott’s death to be random… What does random mean when it comes to the death of our child and loved ones whose lives were important beyond words… I cannot say how many times I thought …

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Scott’s words…about our dream…and more…

The dream I described to you on Monday was not something I asked for…even begged for. Even though I begged for so much in those early days…for an explanation…for clarity, for something…anything that could explain Scott’s sudden death…or how I could ever survive… It did not always come… Twenty years ago…when Scott died…we had so few grief resources. I knew …

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