I have lived through twenty-one years of missing, agony, love, curiosity, demanding, fear, disappointment, anger, amazement, love, signs, awareness, wisdom and the knowing that Scott never left me. His body left…his Spirit stayed. Somehow… Magnificently.Read More
What can learning more about death do to help you in your grief? In those days of pure desperation and confusion, anger, missing and everything you or I have felt…or are feeling…what do we need?
Loving support from those we know and don’t know? Kindness and empathy through the darkest days of our lives? An understanding of our life now? Validation of signs? Knowing where are our children and loved ones are now? Answers to why life would take our loved ones away and leave us here? To know why I am not getting signs…or enough of them? It is a long list… and it could go on for paragraphs…and pages.
I know. I was there, asking, begging, questioning, desperate, and crying out for so many of these to be answered…Read More
The love and commitment I have always had for my beloved Scott could never be questioned. Not when he was here in his body…or for the last twenty-one years…since he “left”.
He has shown me that his love and commitment for me is as true as ever. And now…spiritually…much more knowing and powerful than I could have EVER imagined.
Did I worry about this…his love and commitment to me… in the early years of grief and then the middle years of my twenty-one years? Yes…of course!
There are too many unknowns… And my precious most loved only child had seemingly vanished off the face of this earth.Read More
The love I have for Scott is the love I’ve always had for Scott…
The love that cherished him and nurtured him…
It was always immense…no, it was bigger than immense. What word covers all that huge, incredible, deep love?
I know it’s forever, for eternity… Even beyond this lifetime… Beyond Scott’s lifetime. He’s proven that.
Scott has shown me our love…soul planned for this lifetime would outlive…him…Read More
Have you ever wondered what the words “passed away” mean?
It was maybe an easier way of saying “died” I felt…as I fumbled with telling someone Scott had died.
I never really used that terminology “passed away”, but I am not offended by it, or dislike it. I feel that is anyone’s choice…of what seems right or best for them.
And then I thought…what does “passed away” or “rest in peace” or any of those words really mean?
It is a personal choice to use them…and they become mainstream in time I guess. Even using the word ”lost” in “I lost my child” does not feel right to some.Read More
We are back… Whew!
And continuing our blog…Scott and I…after a period of intense learning on my part.
Oh yes…intense, deep, filled with love and new knowing for me…
I am taught by my son Scott, now in Spirit. I am still totally in awe of the process!
I know it may sound crazy or far fetched or even wishful thinking…
Some of you reading my words might say… I understand Sara. I am experiencing this too…Read More