When this blog was created it, was not my idea. It came from Scott/Spirit/God. As I‘ve said many times, my initial response to creating and then writing a blog was “No”. You see where I am today. I must smile too. It was out of my hands from the beginning.
Knowing I planned this blog long, long ago in my pre-birth soul planning shows me what must be done now with every aspect of my life. When it is time. When it must be seen. When the words must be heard, put on the page, read…greater awareness will come.
I know I am being used in every way I live my life now.
It’s good. Really good.
Did I have to give up control? Yes.
Was that easy?
For me, knowing Scott in Spirit was guiding and pushing me to see more…I tried to say “yes” to everything…but I must admit…the challenges have been great at times, way beyond my abilities it seemed, and way beyond my levels of comfortability. But he did not give up…
It was my soul plan he was implementing…
I trusted… He pushed… I knew I could not say “No” anymore…and really… Why?
I could see that so much of what I had unknowingly accomplished since he left was truly meaningful…even when I knew nothing about soul plans.
I witnessed my actions helping other moms and dads, my family, other families, even those who were not aware of the complexities and depth of grief….to see more.
I now say “Yes” to whatever comes to me through Scott…for my life. Because, as I have learned and learned and been forced to experience…it is not only for me. It is for you. It is for the greater good. And I cannot turn away from the beauty and incredible meaning of it all.
You might question me on that…and that is as it needs to be…
Free will? I have let it go.
I am a spiritual being in a human body living my soul planned experiences while in the body as: Sara Jane Sharp Jessie Ruble. That’s a mouth full! My whole life is seen through my name. As a child ~ Sara Jane Sharp. Married, my name became Sara Jessie. Now, Sara Ruble. Name changes, millions of soul planned human experiences through the years have brought me to this…it was all meant to be. Who I am, where I lived, married, careers, one beloved child, spiritual awareness…all soul planned. What have I learned? Why me? This IS the plan.
I knew nothing about any of this when Scott died, left his body in 1994. I have been evolving. We all evolve through our lifetimes.
I am able to hear Scott clearly…we have merged, so I know my words are his.
I love that! His brilliance flows through me. His all knowing words come to you as well, others too…for greater awareness… I learn more every day.
It was all as it had to be. The soul journey I came to earth to fulfill was the push all along. It was me doing the hard work, nurturing, grieving, loving, facing up hill battles, thriving, giving up at times, to find myself…throughout my lifetime…and it was all spirit-led.
We are going to continue this work, Scott/Spirit and I, until I leave this earth…and then beyond… Yes, beyond. He is my teacher, my coach, my inspiration, my words, the one who confuses me…and then brings clarity and awareness (when it is time). It has not been an easy journey… No. It is the journey I have come for…and I am filled with gratitude for the knowledge, the lessons, the love…ad infinitum…
Scott and I planned this lifetime together before we were born. He left…he had to…his soul work was complete at age nineteen for this lifetime.
I trust. Can you?
I am a spiritual being having spiritual experiences in my human body.
So are you…
There is much more to come… Come grow with us…we are on this path together…
Sara and Scott